The Unwelcome Feminist

Almost a year ago now, I wrote a piece for Engender essentially answering a question:  is the hijab compatible with feminism?  You can view the piece either here on Engender’s website or you can give it a read below!


“You’re destroying any progress women have made by wearing that on your head”

By that, they don’t mean the back combed hell that I attempt on occasion nor my oversized pom pom hat – both of which, it can be argued, should be banned. It is the hijab/head scarf which often evokes such strong responses from some of my female counterparts. The word hijab is more widely associated with the head covering Muslim women wear and for the purpose of this article, I’ll translate it as such. However in reality, the word encompasses a way of being, behind which is the principle of modesty and not only applies to females but men too.

As a woman in my mid thirties, I have now been wearing hijab for over twenty years. I cover my hair and for the most part my body except when I’m at home, in front of my immediate family or my female friends. I cover my luscious locks (or is it a pixie cut?) in a style that I’m drawn to on any particular day; be it the more traditional style hijab, a turban style as seen in my picture below, or a woolly hat on a winter’s day.

I am under no illusion that the hijab continues to be forced on women in various parts of the world however the majority of Muslims, like myself, condemn this. Religious practices of any type should stem from one’s own desire to express their spirituality. My own reasons for wearing hijab stem from choice…now.

Fai Yousaf

Whilst I was never forced to wear it, I can’t deny that there was an expectation that by the time I hit my teenage years, I would be covering. I come from a practising family; my uncle is the chairman of a well known Mosque in Glasgow, I studied the religion growing up and my mother up until recently sat on the board of a local religious organisation. Growing up, I was always fed the narrative (which I am sure many Muslim women are) that we cover ourselves so that we don’t receive unwanted male attention.

It is a narrative which I reject – I most likely would have stopped wearing hijab many years ago if I believed it. There is no reason explicitly stated in our religious text and I therefore believe the reasons for wearing hijab are open to interpretation, perhaps even subjective. The problem I have with the aforementioned narrative is that it not only gives power of my body over to men but also indicates that men are uncontrolled insatiable beings who require us to cover in order to protect themselves. Neither of which I agree with, of course.

The wearing of hijab, for me, stems from my connection with God; what I believe I have been asked to do as a sign of observance. I am required to cover in the same way I do when I pray, even if no men or women are around me. The hijab for me is indicative of another way in which I attain an element of spirituality. It therefore makes sense then that when my connection with God wavers then so too does this aspect of my spiritual connection.

There have been two occasions in my life when I seriously considered removing my hijab. Once at the age of 23 years old when I decided that I no longer believed in the narrative of ‘covering for men’. In fact, if this was the reason then my hijab at times brought plenty of attention countering the effect it was supposed to have. I spoke to my family about my impending decision; my dad never had a strong opinion on hijab and whilst I could sense my mum’s muted disappointment, I was reminded that the decision was mine to make. However I never got there and instead, encouraged by a friend, I explored further. It became clearer to me that hijab, for me, is another aspect of worship.

My second waning came last year after a series of challenges – the death of a loved one and the diagnosis of a friend’s illness to name but a few. I felt angry and if I wore hijab for God then I no longer wanted to do it. I am still wearing it – not prone to rash decisions; my grief less intense and my anger having simmered.

As of late there is a sense of defiance too, for me, in the wearing of the hijab. I am regarded as somewhat oppressed by elements of society and even branches of feminism for the idea of covering up.

“You’re destroying any progress women have made by wearing that on your head”

They imply that I am hindering women through the choice I make. However if I choose who views any part of my sexuality then the notion that I am only liberated if I uncover implies my worth or power lies solely in my body – the very idea which feminism rejects.

Perhaps my views are even more progressive than those who claim otherwise.

3 Replies to “The Unwelcome Feminist”

  1. Very interesting read sis. Last time you saw me I didn’t wear a scarf. My husband didn’t make me wear it. My mum didn’t make me wear it. No one did! It was a decision I came to just before my 31st birthday. I read more in depth about Islam and grew more and more in awe at how much the Quran empowers women! Every time a female is mentioned, it is with love and compassion. From marriage to divorce….from inheritance to bringing up children..women are treated with so much respect in the Quran! And yet, before I focussed on understanding Islam and the Quran, I wasn’t prepared to answer the questions asked by non-Muslims about why women have to wear a scarf and is it true that they will be lashed if they don’t?

    But when you take the time to understand the Quran and Islam, you realise that there is so much misconception about women in Islam in today’s society. I chose to wear the scarf of my own accord. No once forced me and no one would judge me if I decided to take it off. I am not going to deny that i do have days where I struggle to go out with it on for fear of having to deal with uneducated and stupid comments/people and getting arrested for whacking them on the head with whatever is in my hand.. But guess what? I’m still the same person I was before a scarf! It’s like an accessory! I now have fun deciding what scarf to wear just like someone else would find their buzz in matching their shoes or their bag to their outfit! X

  2. Furrukh Rao says: Reply

    Believe me Hijab has nothing to do with attraction we men know who is more beautiful.

    1. Did you even read this piece…..okay, not even read it, did you maybe even just take a little glance at it before you put such a daft arse comment on it?

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